Monday, January 16, 2012

Not so Warm and Fuzzy

I've been in a funk all day.   A little grumpy, and a little lot too snippy with my kids, which then just makes me feel more in a funk because I feel badly about my behavior.  The truth is, some things have been going on with me lately that I haven't shared on the blog.

First, and don't get me wrong, I realize in the grand scheme of things this is minor, but I've been dealing with dental issues since December 1st.  On December 1st, I had 6 cavities filled (replaced 3 old fillings with new white fillings and filled 3 new cavities).  Before you go getting all judgy judgy, the dentist told me my fillings had everything to do with the anatomy of my "older" teeth and NOT anything to do with my brushing.  Anyway, I had the fillings done and EVERY day since then I've been in pain.  I have tooth pain and get extremely bad headaches.  Some days are worse than others, but some days have been REALLY bad.

I've been back to the dentist two times to have my fillings adjusted.  I guess if the fillings are "too high" then it can cause your bite to be off.  Even just a slight difference in your bite causes inflammation to the area and creates little bruises every time you swallow (nearly 2000 times per day).  That cumulative effect equals a LOT of pain.  I think two of the three areas are now fine, but the bottom right area still needs improvement.  Apparently it is common that the fillings need adjusting and I can certainly understand that, however, it has now been 6 weeks of pain and I'm just over it.

In case you're wondering why it's been so long, well I can explain.  Each time the doctor told me it would take awhile for the inflammation to settle.  So for the first week I'd think the inflammation was settling and ignore the pain.  As time wore on I'd realize things weren't right and call to make an appointment and have to wait 2 to 3 more days until our schedules would coincide so I could be seen.

So anyway, I have another appointment tomorrow and I pray to God everything gets fixed with my pearly whites.  I just want to go a day without a headache and/or a toothache.  Oh and maybe not have to take ibuprofen like it's my job.

Secondly, I have something wrong with my foot.  It's very hard to describe and has been going on since my run on New Years day.   At first I thought it was no big deal, just another ache and pain of getting older and doing consistent workouts.  When the pain didn't subside I decided to rest, and skipped a few runs and took a few runs a little easier than I normally would have.

I just kept denying to myself that anything could REALLY be wrong.  After Saturday's 7 mile run with Candace, I realized that something is pretty seriously wrong with my foot.  The pain has been so bad that it has been keeping me from being able to fall asleep at night.  Last night the pain was so bad, I decided to take pain medication from my old shoulder injury and it's the only thing that finally relieved the pain.

So today, and tomorrow, and the next day there will be no running for me.  I realize that this isn't devastating news and I can still cross train, but for someone who is supposed to run a half marathon in 13 days it's pretty disappointing.

My hope is, if I play it safe and rest for a week and then test the waters, I'll know if it was just a flare up or something more serious.  If after a week's rest I'm showing no improvement, I'll visit the doctor and see what he thinks.  I pray that all I need is a little rest and it's nothing that is going to keep this running girl down.

I don't think I realized how much I really do love running.  I thought it was something I just did, but I didn't realize how much a part of me running really is.  That is, until it's taken away.   It's hard to explain, probably hard for most to understand, and even feels a little strange to say it.  Regardless, I'm extremely sad that I can't run.

P.S.  My running partner in crime Bianca has been battling an injury since her marathon in November.  She has taken 3 weeks off from running in a row, as well as two different one week sabbaticals and still hasn't improved.  I now can, not only sympathize, but also empathize in what she's going through and I feel terribly that I haven't been more supportive.  So I say sorry to you, Miss Bianca, and just want you to know we can grow old in our wheelchairs together.

Thanks for "listening" to me complain, I just wanted to share my mood and fill you in on what's going on and hopefully force myself to snap out of this funk.


Anonymous said...

So sorry, but everything happens for a reason, so listen to your body! As for the dental issues, after he/ she gets this fixed, find a new dentist-this should Never happen, nor be allowed to go on for so long...doesn't sound very competent to me. Dodo G

robringer said...

hope you feel better. take the time off from running to catch up on your swimming or biking:) I am sure your body could use a break from the pounding of constantly running. and I hope that tooth/headache issue is gone soon!

JulietteHarmon said...

I feel both you and Bianca! I was reflecting on my run yesterday how it's so nice to actually run full out and not worry about injury keeping me from the "marathon" or next run.
If you remember to way back when, I had to break from you and Bianca so I could run slower and focus on just making it to the start line. It sucked, but I did it!

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