You know what? It's hard. Like REALLY, REALLY, REALLY hard. Like sweating all the way through your clothes so it looks like you just got out of the pool hard. THAT my friends, is what I love about it.
I've been looking for something for a LONG time that would push me to the limit. I can run or bike all day long and if I want to slow down I just slow down. I find a million reasons in my head as to why it's justified to slow down. "I ran long yesterday" or "my hamstrings are tight" or even "it's ok to be slow". I find during CrossFit, however, that I'm digging really deep to do the VERY best I can and not find an excuse to be weak. Instead I'm digging deep and finding it within myself to PUSH past (WAY past) uncomfortable.
Part of pushing myself is because I'm working in a group and even though it's an individual workout, I can't help but notice what's going on around me. I can't help but want to push myself harder to keep up or add a little more weight to see just what I can do.
So many times during todays workout I wanted to stop. I couldn't stop. I couldn't slow down. I couldn't use my hamstrings as an excuse. 3 other ladies were there encouraging me silently by pushing themselves and 1 coach was screaming out loud reminding me that I could do it.
Even though sweat was pouring into my eyes. Even though every muscle in my legs ached. Even though my brain was telling me I couldn't, I kept moving! I pushed myself to keep going. I didn't have to stop, I didn't give myself permission to slow down and my body actually did it.
I wasn't the fastest, I wasn't the strongest, and I certainly wasn't the most graceful. But, you know what? I did it and I became stronger because of it. My body is going to change. I'm pushing myself to do things I never thought I could do and it's only the beginning.
What are you doing to change yourself? How do you push yourself to do your best?