Sunday, January 27, 2013

Blah-- How's that for a Title?

Dealing with an injury really isn't any fun, and dealing with the unknown... well, that's even more not fun.  I also don't deal well with the loss of control.  I like to be in control of my life and right now things just seem to be so out of control.

Usually I can control my weight by keeping a careful balance between what I eat and how much I exercise.  Well without the exercise, I'm afraid my weight is going to creep up and up and that scares me.

I'm also afraid if this isn't a stress fracture, because if it isn't, then what is it?  At least with a stress fracture there's a course of action and a definitive outcome.  I don't like if this, then that and so on.  I just like knowing FACTS.

So I'll admit it, I've spent the day feeling a little sorry for myself and wondering what if.  So I tried to do some things that make me happy.  I cooked (5 meals for the week) with my friend.  Nothing feels better than knowing what you're going to eat for the whole week.  I also lit candles.  4 of them!  My house smells amazing.  About 4 hours later, I snapped to and blew them all out.  Seriously wasting good candle smell on just the Tirches?  I kid.  Kinda.

Ella is also sick today and I've spent pretty much all of the last 3 hours snuggled on the couch with her while she dozes and gets some good mommy time.

Tomorrow is supposed to bring about freezing rain and more snow.  So there's that to look forward to.  HA!

I'm trying to keep a positive attitude and focus on other things (besides fitness) that make me happy.

Off to continue the snugglefest.  Thanks for letting me vent my feelings.


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