Something has been telling me that I need to get back to running alone a little more. Not because I don't like running with my friends because I absolutely do. I prefer to run with my friends, but running with my friends sometimes makes me feel bad. NO ONE ever makes me feel bad, but they're all faster than I am and not being able to keep up is sometimes not good for the psyche.
So I figured I'd get back to my roots and run, just me myself and I, and I was scared. I was scared my legs would hurt, I was scared I'd be running a 12:00 pace (which is just not good for ME, me being the operative word), and I was scared that it would be so bad I wouldn't want to run anymore.
But I woke up this morning to this.
I decided it was ok to be scared but I couldn't have a bad attitude. I just had to go out there and do my very best and that's all I could ask of myself. I was only setting out to run 2 miles, after all. 2 miles because I promised myself I'd ease into things and 2 miles because that's about all I can do around my house without hitting MAJOR hills.
My route definitely had some hills, but they aren't huge (even though any hill feels huge these days).
I'm so glad my run went well. I'm glad I went and I'm glad I went alone. It renewed a little confidence in me that maybe I can SLOWLY return to my former running self.
Mile 1: 10:33
Mile 2: 10: 24
It's a slow start, but it's my start and it makes me happy. They'll be lots more runs coming up in my future. I signed up for the Rock N Roll Cleveland Half Marathon on October 6th.
I really wanted to do a fall half and this is the only race close by that fit nicely into my schedule. It's in 8 weeks so I have many more miles to log, but I'm registered for a race and I'm up for the challenge. It feels good to really feel like I have to train for a half. For so long I've just gone out there and taken it for granted and now I'm going to earn it!
I can't wait!
p.s. I'm also registered for the quick chick 10k on October 13th and the Austin Half Marathon in February!